Captive

Captive

I am your captive.

I cannot seem to break away

From the spell you have me under.

I don't pretend to understand

But I'm always left to wonder

About the many things we shared

And also if you really cared

I know the answer

If I dare decide to think it over.

The thoughts of you are dangerous.

My heart, it pounds,

The butterflies in my stomach

Flutter wildly around and around

I can't seem to catch my breath

As thoughts of you crash into me

Until I feel there's nothing left.

And then I cry relentlessly.

As hot tears spill into my lap,

It's futile for me to wipe them away

And nothing else will fill the gap

You've left me in such disarray

And as I feel my heart breaking,

I just can't seem to move on

Why do we have to be apart?

Why must I always be alone?

Why can't I break free from you?

Where can I go? What can I do?

How will I live? I just want to die.

But all I'll do is sit and cry,

Until there's nothing left in me.

Until welcome exhaustion causes sleep.

I hope that perhaps one day

I can just simply slip away

Instead of living with this mess

I can't move on, I must confess

Until the day I'm finally free,

But I'm not sure I'll ever be...